Monica Lewinski Admits ‘Life Was Almost Unbearable’ in the Aftermath of Her Affair With Bill Clinton

Monica Lewinsky blasted ex-President Bill Clinton for his “gross abuse of power” for luring her into a secret affair during the 1990s while she was a 20-something intern in the married horndog’s White House.

Now 52, Lewinsky had long maintained that her fling with the shameless skirt-chaser, who is 27 years her senior, was consensual. But, she told The Times, “The farther away you get from something, the more mature you get and the more healed you get, and as the world changes, you start to see something differently.”

“And this was a gross abuse of power. Full stop.”

Still, Lewinsky acknowledges that she made mistakes — and some wrong choices — when she was a lovestruck young adult.

Lewinsky has spent decades dealing with the notoriety and fallout after the infamous 480-page Starr Report detailed the duo’s every illicit encounter. Bill, who once declared, “I did not have sexual relations with that woman,” was ultimately impeached by the U.S. House of Representatives on charges of perjury and obstruction of justice for his efforts to conceal their relationship.

The anti-bullying advocate and podcaster confides that in the aftermath she considered suicide, her father considered jumping off a balcony and her mother suffered a nervous breakdown.

“The public humiliation was excruciating; life was almost unbearable,” Lewinsky recalls.

Since then, she’s enlisted multiple therapists, including a somatic therapist and a trauma therapist, and has been diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder.

Lewinsky says nowadays whenever Bill — and his wife of 50 years, failed presidential hopeful Hillary Clinton — hit the headlines “it matters less.”

But she bellyaches about Bill, 79, seemingly walking away from the scandal unscathed.

“I haven’t spoken to him in almost 30 years, and I don’t know what his internal landscape is,” Lewinsky says. “I think he escaped a lot more than I did.”

Yet the grateful gal adds, “I could so easily have ended up a bitter person and shut down, and I’m so lucky that I’m not. I still have love in my heart.”